Post by Erik Lensherr on Jul 23, 2016 23:16:08 GMT -8
His heart ached; he had been supposed to be able to take care of his family, to protect them from anything that would cause them harm...., but in the end, he had failed them, he had failed all of them. Pietro was still alive, but Erik had still failed him; his mother and his twin sister were dead, and there was nothing he could do to take that pain away.
His own grief was still fresh, still raw, but he shoved it down, he buried it deep inside himself. He needed to be able to care for Pietro, and he wouldn't be able to do that if he lost himself in his grief. He would allow himself to grieve, over time, but right now, his main concern was the little boy he held in his arms, the boy that shifted to rest his head on his shoulder.
Pietro tried to tell him that he wasn't tired, but Erik could see otherwise. At his son's question, though, Erik paused to consider his answer. They had planned to go to Romania, the four of them, but now....with just the two of them, where would they go? They could go to Russia; that was farther away than Romania, but Pietro did not yet speak Russian. No, right now, Romania was their best bet.
<"Yes, Pietro,"> he responded, his voice still soft, <"We're going to Romania."> He bent to kiss the top of his son's head, closing his eyes for just a moment as a single tear slipped down his cheek, into Pietro's hair.
<"Go to sleep, little one; I'll keep you safe,"> he murmured. He would travel as far as he could while Pietro slept, and they would be in Romania soon.
Just in case, though, he started singing softly, choosing one of Pietro's favourite Hebrew lullabies. Even though the twins had technically outgrown lullabies, he still sang to them every night. He hoped that doing so now would be soothing to Pietro rather than bringing back floods of memories.
His own grief was still fresh, still raw, but he shoved it down, he buried it deep inside himself. He needed to be able to care for Pietro, and he wouldn't be able to do that if he lost himself in his grief. He would allow himself to grieve, over time, but right now, his main concern was the little boy he held in his arms, the boy that shifted to rest his head on his shoulder.
Pietro tried to tell him that he wasn't tired, but Erik could see otherwise. At his son's question, though, Erik paused to consider his answer. They had planned to go to Romania, the four of them, but now....with just the two of them, where would they go? They could go to Russia; that was farther away than Romania, but Pietro did not yet speak Russian. No, right now, Romania was their best bet.
<"Yes, Pietro,"> he responded, his voice still soft, <"We're going to Romania."> He bent to kiss the top of his son's head, closing his eyes for just a moment as a single tear slipped down his cheek, into Pietro's hair.
<"Go to sleep, little one; I'll keep you safe,"> he murmured. He would travel as far as he could while Pietro slept, and they would be in Romania soon.
Just in case, though, he started singing softly, choosing one of Pietro's favourite Hebrew lullabies. Even though the twins had technically outgrown lullabies, he still sang to them every night. He hoped that doing so now would be soothing to Pietro rather than bringing back floods of memories.